Monday, March 21, 2011

Are We There Yet? Destination...Sean

Happy Monday!  Happy Spring Break... or not.

It is a mere two hours into our staycation and I have already scolded Sean for chewing on the mouse pad on the computer desk.

For the most part, I really do enjoy these days.  Days where I am not turning on all the lights hoping to annoy my sleepy kids enough to get out of bed.  Days where I am not constantly watching the clock and completely agonizing over the slowness of their morning routines.  And days where this night owl mom can sneak in a few extra minutes of sleep.

Even with the children ultimately getting on my nerves, the bickering and fighting, the incessant screams of "Mom!"... even those times where the bathroom is no longer considered sacred, hallowed ground, I enjoy Spring Break.

It's the Monday afterwards that I will not enjoy.

Sean will be off routine.  You all know what that means.....

One week of semi-bliss filled with more go nowhere days than not, almost always ends with a day of enormous stress.

And that's just for you!

Think about it through Sean's brain.  He's had a week where he doesn't have to hold himself together.  A week where the rules are ingrained and the people know him well enough to either give him a break or punish him to the fullest extent depending on where he is in his world when the infraction occurred.

A week where he can flap, he can talk, he can drive his poor mother nuts by pacing back and forth from the living room to the kitchen.  He can even chew on mouse pads.  This week he will not be written up.  He will not have to "read" people he's never met or deal with kids that he sees only 9 to 3 for 180 days a year. 

He knows us.  He knows this world.  And we know him.

Sean can be himself... his true autistic self.  His true, amazing, beautiful self.

This week Sean will relax.  And so will I.  Next Monday is a million miles away.

So let's take today, this moment, to stop, breathe, and enjoy.  We can worry about tomorrow when it comes.

Have a great day everyone!!!

1 comment:

  1. I hope that your spring break is a great one with your son. Even though it may bring stress, I hope it brings moments of bliss for you two that will be stored safely in your memories for you to think upon when the stress gets to be a little too much. Praying for you!